It’s Sunday…
Ok, so I am still exploring this blog stuff, and it says “untitled” for my posts.. w.e i’ll just ask sarah about it later. (PS-This post is dedicated to her. She got the idea in my head a while ago, and now i’ve taken it up…love you!)
SO, for reals now.. it IS Sunday.. and… well nothing has really happened yet. I’m currently laying in my bed listening to a Christmas soundtrack I bought at Starbucks today. I actually love Christmas music. Every 1st of December that comes round, the first thing I do when the clock strikes 12.. no lie.. is put in my my ipod and just listen to Christmas carolss. sappy I know…. but I love getting into the season. You know what’s weird though? Every year I try to get into the spirit and make it a Christmas to remember… but every year that goes by, I feel less and less Christmassy.. I dunno.. that’s not all exactly true. Some days i’ll just get a jolt of the season and really enjoy it.. but that rarely comes. I’m still waiting for it.
I saw the hottest piece of ass today.. walking at Carleton. Like seriously, he was phenomenal. AND the best part is, I know him… or at least I knew his family.. and a few of my friends might personally know him, BUT, I am not saying any names. haha, well, I guess I can.. he’ll never read this shit. His name is Evan. That’s a fucking hot name as well. Evan _ E _ _. I’ll tell you this much… his brother is a hocky player.. and he’s famous. I went to elementary, junior high, and high school with these people.. and now, I am in my post secondary education with (some of) them as well. ;)
It’s still weird to me talking about guys. I didn’t come out of the friggin closet till June of 2008….so actually writing about stuff on public dispalys is kinda scary.. especially since my family members (cousins) can see it. I just hope that if they do ever come accross it, they’ll keep their mouths shut.. for now at least. Because coming out is the hardest thing ever..
The first person I ever told was my friend Azenith. We have gone through so much together.. Since gr.5-now, we’re still pretty damn close.. I mean, we don’t talk everyday type of thing… but when we do see each other, we just pick up where we left off..
Yeah so anyways, coming out was hard. I was shaking the time I told her. We were in the basement of C building at SPX, and she was crying. I comforted her, while eating a wrap of course, and just wondered to myself in the moment. I don’t know about you, but when you get that feeling that it’s ok to tell someone something really big… like you’re pregnant, or that you cheated on someone… or w/e.. it just COMES out. For reals.. it just comes out and a surge of adrenaline goes through your body right at the moment, but when it’s out, you just say to yourself- OH SHIT, as if I just said it.
It’s kinda fun… Anyhow…she just hugged me, then I started to tear.. not cry.. but tear… and then the bell rang. Fucking stupid classes. You know what? In school, we were treated like animals.. how to dress, what to eat, when to eat, where to eat… no walking the halls, no talking unless your hand is raised.. listening to a fucking BELL that tells you when to get to class.. and when any of these rules are broken.. prepare for the worst. Weird eh? We’re humans.. free… but not really when you look at it this way.
So——I came out to her. After that, I didn’t talk about it again until like friggin January.. even February… Then in June, it just came out.. ALL OF IT. I told all of my closest friends and stuff… and then eventually it just became a known fact. Nothing was different! Thank God I don’t see the same lame asses in my grade anymore. That shit killed in high school.. fucking waking up and having to spend your day with pathetic morons that only cared about their social life and if they looked good and who’s dating who and who the fuck to hate on. Don’t get me wrong… I cared about my reputation, but didn’t fuss over stupid shit and be a dumbass in class to get attention from anything that had 2 legs.
Twilight had to be the best movie I saw this year. Hands down. In terms of plot and characters… and appearance…
ROBERT PATISSON (EDWARD CULLEN) Holy fucking mercy I almost fainted. It wasn’t even so much the face.. ok, it was.. but moreso the hair. The fucking hair was phenomenal. AMAZING. His voice… body….lips.. Shit lips do a lot these days I find…not so much on girls.. cuz i’m not really into them… but it does add to the face… BUT ON GUYS… wow. I’m not talking the fab black lips that some people could pull off.. but the juicy, pink, soft, not too big lips..the medium sized smooth and yummy lips..
So after seeing that, I went to buy the 2nd book, and am currently looking at it beside me right now. mmm… that hotass awaits me…. not bella.. all in all, so far so good.
So I feel like i’ve reached my limit for this early morning.. i’ll be back tonight i’m sure with more details about the day and how it went.. I just hope it goes well… And hopefully I can actually study today…
Until this evening…
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